Why is it that every friendship I've had since middle school leaves me feeling used. I'm not your free babysitter, designated driver, or ATM. We live on one income and make it just fine with the the 4 of us. But I don't have the money to hand you because you over spent while shopping and now don't have gas money for your hot date. If you want to have a friend then be one don't call only when your having a bad day but never return calls when someone else needs you!! Don't call me for an emergency to watch your child and return 11 hours later. I'm tired of it. Don't call when you have decided to go out and then leave your child with me for 3 days. No respectable date lasts that long. Don't call your child retarded for one and surely don't use it in front of me and my child.



End of rant!

Flowers

This morning Regan and I were outside early enough to run around in the yard. We were talking about the daffodils or actually I was talking, he was just playing and smelling. He then pulled two of them, I of course had to tell him we don't pull flowers, but then he tried to put them in his pocket. So I watched! He wouldn't give them to me he kept saying no and then something I couldn't understand. When the bus turned the corner he went running to the bus with his flowers. Ms. Darlene always gets one of his hands to help him up the steps and before he would give up his hand he gave her the flowers. At the top of the stairs he said here and she handed them back. He then turned to Mrs. Nancy gave her a flower and then handed Mrs. Darlene one back. Such a sweet moment for his momma,even though I didn't get any flowers!!!

Atlanta here we come!!

Saturday will be our six year anniversary! We are going to Atlanta for the night!! I can't believe that I'm going to leave Kollyn already but we really need this. Ricky and I are on the exhausted side! We never get to sleep more than a few hours at a time and I have no idea when the last time we slept the entire night in the same bed. We are both up and down all night with the boys and most of the time I'm with one boy and he with the other. We are going to do some shopping and go to a dinner show! I'm going to have a hard time not having the boys with me but I know how important it is for us to stay connected for the boys so off we go!

T-Ball love

Regan had a preseason tournament over the weekend. We were very nervous as to how he would do after missing practices. He did pretty good. He of course got bored and started throwing his hat around and playing in the dirt and made some nice grass angels for us. But it's not much different than what some of the other kids were doing in the outfield so we were shocked.

During the first game Regan got to bat and hit the ball pretty good but just didn't run. He stood there and finally started his "run". He of course got out but we were just glad that he did finally start running. His next up to bat he would have made it to first but he didn't start running so he got out. We were expecting a home run hitter or anything so we were fine with his outs. He did get an RBI so we were happy with that!!

The second game on Friday night he got out one time and then on his next bat they let him run a home run. The coach had to run with him because he loses focus from first to second and so they helped him find all the bases. Everyone was cheering him on and it was just a magical moment in my life. He scored his second "home run" that night and it got the game ball!!

We are so thankful for the coaches that Regan has this year. After sitting there watching the other coaches from other teams get mad at their players and yell at the kids who weren't paying attention we are just so thankful for the team and coaches we have.

Your child ~My Child

Just because some program works for your "typical" child does not mean it will work for mine. Regan learns things in a different way than other kids. I can't explain it but for a typical parent to tell me what I need to do to help my "special needs" child just burns me. You have no idea the struggles we have went through just to get where we are and to act like I haven't done something right makes me want to knock you in the knees. My child will get where your child is one day,it may not be the same way you got there but we will just wait.


THE END OF THE RANT FOR THE DAY!!!!

Baby Love

Baby Heath #3 is now due September 30Th! Last time I had an ultrasound done it was pretty early,so yesterday I had my second one we realized that I'm further along that originally thought. Here is my little love.











Isn't she/he adorable! I just love those little legs! Ha! This baby is just even more special to me because we weren't expecting and trying for so long. This baby (like all babies I know) is like a surprise gift. We weren't expecting it and that just makes it so special to know that we were trusted to have another baby. I know the heartache of trying and losing and struggling to get pregnant so I feel so blessed to get a surprise!







Okay on to a subject that won't make me cry.







Kollyn~~ Oh how that child melts my heart. He is a great little boy. When we came home from the hospital he fussed LOTS! I was struggling and had to have lots of help to get my self adjusted. The first four weeks were awful. I cried all the time and then would just lose it for the smallest reasons, just ask anyone who came in contact with me. Now Kollyn is a super happy little boy, who is most of the time sleeping through the night, and just loves his big brother!! They are beginning to play together and Regan wants to include him in all that he does.

T-ball is going okay. We have a pre-season game this week. Regan has missed a lot of practice in the last few weeks. With the passing of MawMaw Surrett, and then pneumonia we just couldn't make it. Regan gets to go back to school tomorrow!! I'm very excited that he is ready to go. Having two kids at home,especially one that is sick, makes for a long day and even more when all I want to do is sleep all day.

pneumonia,the ER and more!

We got to make our 2nd trip to the ER with Regan lastnight!! He went to the doctor on Thursday and by Saturday night he wasn't any better. He was still running fevers and was getting dehydrated. So after talking to his doctor we headed to the ER. After a couple of hours we got the news that he had another ear infection and lots of pneumonia in his left lung. They were trying to decide about admitting him but finally decided to let us go home and come back 24 hours later and get another dose of Rocephin. We then go back to the doctor Monday to see his doctor again and see if we need to do something else.

Since yesterday He has improved sooo much but is still wheezing and coughing really bad. No fevers since lastnight and that is the longest he has been without fever since Wednesday!! I'm so ready to have a well little boy again.

I get to go to the doctor tomorrow!! I'm really excited to get to see Baby3 again. I'm 10 weeks! Hard to think that that I have already finished a forth of this pregnancy!! Woohoo! 10 weeks till we find out what we are having. I'm going with another boy but Ricky thinks a girl.

Lots of sadness and sickness

There has been lots of sadness in our lives lately. I not sure how much more sadness I can handle. I have of course been an emotional mess the last couple of weeks and these sad events are not helping me at all. Lots of families are hurting right now and my heart goes out to all of them.


Regan has been to the doctor three times in three weeks. Each visit has been on Thursday. I think that is just what I'm supposed to do now on Thursday's. Regan started with an upper respiratory infection, then had his five year old check up, and then today we went and he was diagnosised with viral pneumonia. He has lots of new medicines and breathing treatments. We are hoping that he is better by Monday or we may have to do something different than home treatment. He is already acting better after getting some breathing treatments in him.